me and my man

my man always though that i'm the hot babe (thanks dear!) and everywhere i go, i turn heads and he feels like digging out those eyes that were looking.

i don't blame him, because i have more male friends then female friends.

why? because i find that guys are easier to talk to and they don't care if i wear channel parfume or christin dior's make-up, they won't comment if i wear crappy and cheap Diesel or classy and expensive G2000. as long as the conversation is right, we will hang out real well.

he gets jealous easily. i don't blame him either. but on the other hand, he's ok with me hanging out with my guy friends. so i am quite fortunated for his understanding.

i once told him that if i am a player, i would not hang out with him that regular, i won't introduce him to my friends and family, i would keep a low profile about the relationship, so that in the end of the day, breaking up would be a lot more easier. ( don't get me wrong, this is a IF scenario)

he likes to stay casual (or should i say dress down) sometimes, while me in my usual tees an d pants, or sometimes a little bit dress-up, he would be unsecure and start to stare hard at every human who look at us. he always have a feeling that the other people would think "what the hack is that hot girl doing with that normal guy?"

what i am trying to say is that, honey, no matter if you are in pants, short or even naked, you still look hot to me, and no matter what i wear, weather if it's G2000 shirt (that's the most luxurious clothes i can affort now) or dress, or even a simple t-shirt, i still want to go out with you.

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I wake up this morning, hoping last night was just a dream, but it wasn't.



things are all gone, forever. Everything is never going to be the same again.



and starting today, my family is never complete anymore.



it's the end.


and it was my fault.

I didn't care about the signs, I ignore them, because I choose not to believe it. I choose to believe that we will be living happily ever after. I choose to be happy. I choose to do things I want to do. I could have care about them, but I didn't. I could have pull us all together, but I didn't. I let it be. I didn't care about it.


I made the biggest mistake of my life. I am an big fat idiot.

it's gone forever

it's dad's birthday today, we were suppose to celebrate his 50th birthday, but something change everything.

the place i called home, is a house now. it's going to be a place we eat, shower, and sleep.

there won't be a family for us anymore, love's gone, forever.

relatives

it's been a while since i write something decent, i've been boring everyone with the pethatic friendster thingy. well, today i'm going to talk about family stuff.

COUSINS! I have an elder female cousin who i play with when i was a kid. we were very close back then, something like sisters then cousins. then, we grew up and went into different secondary school, i went to college and she went to polytechnique. then, i am still stuck in this little town while she move to singapore, the land of 2 times the money we have here in this crappy country call Malaysia. we didn't speak much back then, and um.... even now.

but recently, she kept on contacting me trough friendster, of which, i am very puzzled. i mean, when someone you know but didn't contact for a long time and suddently contacted you and become very friendly, that's either she miss me or something fishy is going on.

well, we've been living in the same city less then 1 mile away from each other and we never really talk for the last um... 10 years? and out of a suddent she kept on messaging me with "how are you?" , " how are things going on?" , "how is everyone?", "remember to take care" bla bla bla......

and during the last CNY, she sent my grandpa a card with some very "touching" message of which my grandpa was touched. it's very easy to please my grandpa, either give him some expensive gift or something cheap with very expensive looking packaging or something which look like you took a million years to do it. (i gave him a eu yan sang chicken essence with wooden box is it's packaging which cost me RM40 but it looks like RM80, he was so happy about it till now) but the best way to please him is to go somewhere far far far away (like princess fiona in shrek liddat) and send crappy greeting card or call him.

what i don't understand is that, she used to be very proud of herself. she is prettier and better looking then me, and most of all, she used to have a rich-ass boyfriend which is like the utimate prize of all time. and the first time she brought her boyfriend home, it was like everyone in the families know, even the little counsins. back then um..... and now, i am not so good looking, not as slim as she is, and doesn't have a boyfriend.

i replied one of her message, saying i am fine and everyone is fine and my dog is fine so you can be at ease. lets see what's her reply.

with friendster turns to friedster

notice the 3 "hi" title message, all from the same person





message number 1:


ok.... I'll add him/her later



message number 2


I get the point!




Message number 3:


dammit!!!! Remember to add hor, or else I'll send you more message to get you to add me hor.


How annoying cool is that!!!???

Some people just vandalize e-mailing.






P/S: check out the date and time.